The importance of Today & Other Ramblings

Friday, August 22, 2008
Hey There,
Thanks so much for your input on my blog comments. You're exactly right. I talked to Steve and Sheri about it and neither of them were offended. In fact Sheri said I told her just what she needed to hear! God is truly Amazing!I don't usually get so uptight about something like that. I think it's simply because of the huge stakes we are playing for right now. Things seem Bigger, Louder, More Dire...

I haven't talked to Steve today, but I will give you the latest from yesterday.

Steve's cancer is spreading VERY rapidly. The doctor thinks he has another tumor on or around his spine and kidneys. The pain is almost intolerable. The pain pump dose was increased to try and help this newer pain, but Steve doesn't like the way he feels when he takes that much. He said he has some videotapes he wants to make and other arrangements to do that require a clearer mind. He gets groggy and sleeps a lot of the time when he's on the higher dose.

He said taking baths is helping some on the pain. He said there is something about his stomach being underwater that relieves the pressure pain he has there. The problem is that it only feels better underwater, but to get that way he has to go thru all sorts of disconnecting of tubes, etc, and that uses up his energy. Sorry the news is so bleak.

I do want to touch on what you said about posting on the blog. I agree with you that at times it feels like a writing competition. There are some very gifted writers and Christians out there. Although everything I write is always a lonnnggg comment, some of the briefest, i.e., "I'm praying for you right now." type comments are ones that say the most. Steve is reading them all. He gets some relief knowing that "out there" people are being touched by his story. It gives him comfort. Maybe it's worth a little discomfort on our parts to give him that steady reassurance that he IS changing our lives...literally.

Don't be so hard on yourself about what you say. This is a man that has been a part of your life more than 25 years. It's okay to hurt from what is happening to him. This is STEVE!!! You've got to be kidding!!! Why would God choose STEVE??? These were my thoughts...but I'm slowly realizing what the answer to those statements is.

Would we really have gotten so upset about this if he was 75-80 years old? No, it would be expected. God works in the gray areas of our lives. He can color outside the lines of our lives. How much more of a testament to the Lord is it to be NOW?! I don't like it, can't change it, and am furious about it all. But when it gets down to the nitty gritty, Steve feels "chosen" to bring the Lord into our lives in a tangible way. THIS MATTERS! For GOD's Sakes...It's STEVE!
Aren't we blessed to have been part of his life?!!

Go live a happy day today for Steve and Sheri. Let them change your life for the better, not the bitter. Be happy; love the important people in your life. Live every day for Steve since he can't complete the task himself. Love God. Live God. Every day counts!

All my love,Mama June